People say that time heals. But for me every day just brings more pain, more thoughts I didn’t think about the day before. More things that remind me that my life will never be the same. I don’t answer my phone because I don’t want to hear that it’s all going to be ok, because I feel as though it never will be. I’m sick of hearing that God has a plan because if this was his plan, to put me through this pain and agony, I don’t want to believe in Him anymore. And I don’t want to hear that it will happen again when it’s time, because who are you to say that this wasn’t our time. I don’t expect people to know what to say so I guess that’s why I just don’t talk to anyone. I know that everyone trully cares and just wants me to be ok, but I just want it all to go away….