I hope you’ll understand I don’t have the heart to tell some of you. The thought of calling certain people or hearing their reaction. Nate said he would call some of his family but I know this is just as hard on him and saying out loud is almost more than we can bare right now.
I’m not sure what the next step is. Not sure where to go from here. It hasn’t even been that long and I already feel like I lost a huge peice of me.
Please God give me some peace.
For those of you who might wonder. as you know we went to the ER saturday because of bleeding. They did an ultrasound and said the gestastional sac measured about 5mm. And my hcg level was 2050. Yesterday at the ultrasound they said I was still about 5mm. So they wanted to check my levels again, they called me yesterday about 3 to tell me they had dropped down to 69. The dr is supposed to call me today and talk to me about what’s next….
this is all i have left to hold on to. just one tiny black dot on an ultrasound picture…